Mr. Eighteen

How can I make you understand about this feeling?? Sometimes I feel that I am tired...
You never say yes or no!!


Honestly, I just wanna you love me as I am... because I don't wanna be something different from my real..
Have you ever felt the same feeling as mine??

I don't wanna hold you in different soul. I just wanna hold you as yours...

I love you... Mr. Eighteen...

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Forbidden Love

Dear God,,,

Why do you send him to be my "forbidden love"?? I know it will be impossible if I still love him. Frankly, I really wanna live with him... Spend my time.. and give my heart to him...
He always disturb my feeling.. till I feel that it is the most complicated feeling I ever felt. I try to brush away all of the memories. However,, it's really hard for me..

God?? Why do you not send him to be another person?? So, I can stand beside him without any barriers. Sometimes, I wanna neglect this destiny and force my feeling..

But,,, It's impossible.. this is my forbidden love.. Honestly, I love him so much.. I can feel as the real I am, if I stand beside him.. He can treat me as his guardian angel.. So do I. We love each other,,, but I have to erase this forbidden feeling.. 'coz we can't ignore Your destiny..

God, I believe that You have another way to show me the right love.. The right man.. and the right guardian angel..

But, don't force me to let him go.. Coz I still need him to spend the time together although he is my "forbidden love"....

I never think that you will be only mine I push my self strongly to hold your heart Even if that it is forbidden for our love I know that I shouldn’t still love you again But I can’t do anything to brush away this feeling Don’t ask me to let you go from my life Because to be with you it’s all that I want But the destiny has changed everything When I’m looking at the dark sky in the middle of the night I realize that sooner or later I can’t be your angel I should stop loving and thinking about you But please . . . Let your love always grows in my heart Because . . . The more I forget you, the more I love you

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Confusing

It's like a confusing life. Sometimes I can feel that I can be yours. However, I feel different feeling. I don't know exactly, whether you treat me as a baby or just an ordinary friend. Firstly, you said that I am yours. I doubt it at all. Why??? Because you don't treat me as yours. . .
I want you to accompany me . . I want you to be here . . I want you to be mine . . Am I only dreaming????
I don't want to open my eyes, coz I am afraid if suddenly I know the fact. The fact that you never love me at all . . .
Let me always love you, although you never love me . . .

Firstly, you said that you wanna be right here with me... So far,,, the bitterness and lies look clearly..
I don't know what actually happen to you.. Do you have another love?? I don't know it..

It seems like "the broken vow"

Tell me her name
I want to know
The way she looks
And where you go
I need to see her face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end

Tell me again
I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night
When I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own

I'll let you go
I'll let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I'll let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time

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Is he mine? (Love and Passion)

Talking about love, will be something complicated in my life. Sometimes I can be extrovert even introvert. For me, love can inspire and influence the way of my life.
I am really confused when I have to face the two difficult options. I have to choose "He" or "Principal".
Both of the things seem like going on the right track. It depends on the situation.

Formerly, I really wanted to keep my principle. However, since I met you some years ago, my principal became weak. Honestly, I was so stress at that time. However, I always tried to obey my principal.

My last question about "Is he mine??" can be answered now. The answer is NO. He is not mine... and he is not a good man...

Love and passion walk together in a vague line
Without caring the true heart beside in mine
The line sometimes makes me falter
In which side I should stand nearer

But, love and passion couldn’t be separated
Even, I really try hard to reject it
It will always make a blur shadow
Even you try to close your heart window

Loving or admiring someone is a right
Standing inside without feeling outside
This passion giving a sign to be real
No one could forbid the heart to feel

Let me say I love you
Let me always feel you
Facing together in balancing love and passion
Keeping you forever in my lovely prison

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