Forbidden Love

Dear God,,,

Why do you send him to be my "forbidden love"?? I know it will be impossible if I still love him. Frankly, I really wanna live with him... Spend my time.. and give my heart to him...
He always disturb my feeling.. till I feel that it is the most complicated feeling I ever felt. I try to brush away all of the memories. However,, it's really hard for me..

God?? Why do you not send him to be another person?? So, I can stand beside him without any barriers. Sometimes, I wanna neglect this destiny and force my feeling..

But,,, It's impossible.. this is my forbidden love.. Honestly, I love him so much.. I can feel as the real I am, if I stand beside him.. He can treat me as his guardian angel.. So do I. We love each other,,, but I have to erase this forbidden feeling.. 'coz we can't ignore Your destiny..

God, I believe that You have another way to show me the right love.. The right man.. and the right guardian angel..

But, don't force me to let him go.. Coz I still need him to spend the time together although he is my "forbidden love"....

I never think that you will be only mine I push my self strongly to hold your heart Even if that it is forbidden for our love I know that I shouldn’t still love you again But I can’t do anything to brush away this feeling Don’t ask me to let you go from my life Because to be with you it’s all that I want But the destiny has changed everything When I’m looking at the dark sky in the middle of the night I realize that sooner or later I can’t be your angel I should stop loving and thinking about you But please . . . Let your love always grows in my heart Because . . . The more I forget you, the more I love you